Have you ever had a bad mom moment? I have, but yesterday's was a doosey(?).
I was at The mall with my mom shopping for an outfit to wear to my brother's wedding. Boston was wondering around and I was following. We were upstairs in Nordstroms when Boston decided he wanted to go down the escalator. So I figured I would intercept him before he got there and take him back to where my mom and the sales woman was. So I playfully scooped him up and threw him high up in the air (you know like all parents do with their kids). Apparently I let go of him a little too late so instead of going straight up and back down in front of me, he went OVER MY HEAD behind me. Realizing the error I made and trying to catch him before he landed on his head I reached up and grabbed his arm and tried to pull him safely back into my arms. I quickly realized that there was no way I would be able to catch him so I tried to hold on to his arm and slow his fall but it didn't work. He was falling too fast for me to get a good grip and he slipped right through my hands and landed about two feet away from me on the tile floor. The whole time he was in the air I was praying that he wouldn't land on his head, and some how (angels) he landed on his bottom and then his head hit the tile.
I ran over and scooped my terrified, hurt and screaming baby up. His little face looked like he had just been betrayed by the person he trusted most in the world. Suddenly I was surrounded by a group of women, workers and my mom. I was crying as hard as he was I felt so bad. One woman said as she rubbed my arm "He'll be ok, I saw him, he didn't hit his head that hard. It scared him more than anything." A worker asked me if I needed to sit down while another offered to get me a drink. My mom was right there hugging Boston and I. One woman started to tear up because I was so upset by what happened.
Boston cried and just held me as tight as he could for about 30 minutes. I cried for 15 minutes and just felt like the crappiest mom ever. Who is so dumb to throw their baby OVER their head. I've played that game with him a million times so I'm not quite sure what went wrong this time other than a didn't let go in time and was walking at the same time...I don't know.
I'm so thankfully that kids are so loving and trusting of their parents that even when we do things like throw them over our head and drop them on a tile floor they still love us.
He's fine and back to being his happy and adorable self. I'm back to being his favorite person in the whole world.
Forever!!!
4 comments:
I'm glad you guys are okay! I swear there really are angels watching over our little ones. As sad as it is that you were so upset by this, I can't help but chuckle at the thought of you tossing your little Boston right over your head :) I could totally see myself doing it too. You're not a bad mom at all! It shows how wonderful and compassionate you are that you were so concerned and upset by it. Love ya~
omg! i totally feel for you. i somehow put ash on my mom's kitchen counter when he couldn't sit on his own fully and leaned over to pick up a piece of trash. he tipped over and i couldn't hold him at all with just my one hand that i had left on him so he wouldn't move. he fell and landed on the tile floor on his back. i felt awful and like i was by far the worst mom ever. gladly he is ok, but i still beat myself up for it. the great thing about babies is that they won't remember once they stop crying. lol
oh my gosh I was laughing out loud, then all sudden started crying with you!! lol (my emotions are a little crazy right now) But you are not a bad mom!! Glad he is ok and that you survived too!.... Don't ya just love bab mom moments?
Oh how this post made my stomach hurt. Aren't you glad babies are so bouncy and durable? Still, every time Kate falls or bonks I want to cry (and do sometimes). Glad you aren't so emotionally damaged that you couldn't blog about it :)
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